i can't stand any longer. these problems absolutely killing me. i have many questions and i can answer it but i really want to know the truth. i hate this fucking situation for sure. i wish i can express my feeling right now but i just can't because it's really hard to say. feels like i'm the most unlucky person in this world. so much troubles and i can't handle it. i'm here alone but i know, no one can help me. i hate this damn life. i wish God will help me to face these problems and finish this pain as soon as possible. alright, i can't hold this anymore, these tears fall without i asking. sad?yes. i really want to finish all of these fucking problems. wanna share it with someone but i just can't.....i don't know. so random yeah i know but i don't know where to express it so i just write here. when and where i can have a normal life? without problem. i hope i didn't take a wrong decision. please, i'm 14th and i think i do not deserve to feel this. sorry for the bad words by the way.