are you really sure?

everybody says "i want a friendship like Jane & Billy in Jane by Design"

but for me, it's a bad idea. "no, you don't want. trust me. when you're accidentally in love with him, you're too close to be a couple. maybe you want to tell the truth, but you know it will ruin your friendship and of course you don't want that to be happen" 

"and when he loves someone else, you can't get mad. you're just his best friend, right?"

"maybe not now, but someday you'll get hurt when he says 'you are the best friend i've ever had' and you can do nothing."

"you know what? believe or not, fighting is the best way to makes you closer with your friends. i don't suggest you, but that is the fact."


kinda late post but i still agree.

the real one

haha i hate this kind of bullshit words. don't make a promise that you can't keep, because you'll eat your sweet words soon. if you now in a happy condition then be ready for your worst situation, right? sorry i still have this kind of sickness that could never disappear; uncontrolled emotion. you know what maybe i don't deserve this but i just want to try because everybody in the mainstream quotes said that "don't give up before you try" then if you realized, you can't do anything just for 'try' you have to do it really serious yap? everybody can tell you how bad that person for you but all those comments are the reason why you can't leave that person. because i'm trying not to judge people by their badness, i know it's hard to forget their badness but nobody's perfect as we know.

i suggest you to avoid this one "try to be a normal people; not to be the real you" for what you do that things and everybody gonna like you but yourself never comfort to it. just show the real you and you'll know that the person could accept you how matter you are. you don't seem to care can't always be there i don't understand why but i do like you own way either. sometimes i do give up for always have a positive thinking that actually the truth is, i have already known how its gonna be. music can relieved me but i just so sick of love song.

you know you've lost a diamond while you busy collecting a stone is when you feel like nobody cares with you anymore any longer. but how do we know which one is a diamond and which one is a stone? at the beginning they're still the same, a stone. just like you can't decided things. 14th years i have lived in this earth and still can't decided between 2 or more choices, which is better for MYSELF and always asking other people but then i never agree to them. what do you want, maus. i would really hate myself if i was the other people who i asked about.

uh so sorry for these unimportant words haha just wanna share with you who read this, i think i get a un-sober condition well bye